22 May 2011

The heart and its concept of time

Alanis Morissette once sang, "and I have no concept of time other than it is flying," and I daresay most of us can readily agree with that statement. I had a moment though, the other week. A moment when my heart seemed to go back and stand still in time for just a moment before my intellect screamed me back to the here and now.

Have you ever loved someone and simply due to circumstances it was no longer acceptable or appropriate to love them? Again, Alanis sings, "and I never dreamed I would have to lay down my torch for you like this." We move on and get through the initial pain of loss in our heart, and as Felicity (from the show of the same name) once pointed out, it's more like we just learn to live with the broken heart. I guess you could say it heals, but the scars are still there.

The moment I had the other week was simply a moment when my heart just filled with love toward this person that is really not much in my life anymore. The memory of tender times past - a time when propriety had no role in whether or not I loved this person. And I realized how much I miss having someone to love. Even if it was someone that couldn't love me back, or rather, acknowledge that love.

Regardless, it really is good to be in love. And there are moments when I really miss it. Hopefully there will come another time when propriety will be on my side.

Are you there blogosphere? It's me - Angela

Hello strangers! It has been a crazy 2011 so far. My semester is over (straight A's mind you!), which means I survived Meteorology - it was touch and go there for awhile. My Pampered Chef business is doing well, too, which I am loving. It's fun and I am earning money doing it! What a concept, I say!

I'm trying to feel out how things are going to pan out over the next while, though. Things are getting to the point where my school schedule and work schedule are not getting along very well. Definitely "does not play well with others." So time will tell... I'm at present waiting it out to see where I'm led. I've got one summer class and two in fall - at that rate it'll be foreeeeeever until I obtain my Middle School Ed. degree. So as I said, time will tell.

Other things I've been working on - I am planning to walk a 5K on June 11 with the people from my Weight Watchers group. I'm excited to officially complete an official one. I've also signed up to do the Cleveland Heart Walk 5K in August with my co-workers, so I'm working to raise money for that. If you're interested in helping, let me know via message and I'll send you the link - or I may post it to my blog actually at some point in the near future.

Basically, that's the reader's digest condensed version of what the last 5 months has been for me. What have you been up to? Hit me up in the comments section and validate me!