22 April 2009
21 April 2009
Can I just say, I can NOT agree MORE. Oh my land. We live in a world that people can seem so desperate to not be alone, that they settle for less than they want and/or deserve, people begin relationships with the hope that the other will change, they feel lukewarm about the person they're with, or they aren't as compatible as they'd have hoped, etc. I think that part of the problem is that we have stopped being honest with ourselves. We lie to ourselves in the attempt to feel better. Society fuels our insecurities and ill decisions by convincing us that we are worthless simply because we're "alone."
Now, I know I'm technically getting into spinstiness. That's right, I'm 32 and unmarried, so I'm a spinster, right? But I am SO grateful that I've been able to have the opportunity thus far to not be with the WRONG person. It has afforded me the opportunity to really come to know what I want in a potential mate and how I want to be in my future marital bliss (I know marriage is hard work, I'm saying it like that for effect).
I guess I ask you this: How much stronger is a woman who knows her worth and stands by her principles? A woman that listens to her gut feeling (dare I say the Spirit)? A woman who is strong enough to stand on her own, but sensitive enough to want to be a wife and mother someday?
We should all strive to be honest with ourselves and the people we relationship (yes, I am using that as a verb). Our culture seems to tell people to continue holding on trying to force things to work out even when deep down we know we aren't happy. Idealy, we discover this BEFORE exchanging marital vows. Instead of dating someone you know you "just aren't that into" for 6 months, be strong enough to cut it off after a fair trial of say two months. If you aren't in it to win it after 2 months, not much is gonna change in another 4 months... or 4 years... etc. Granted, I'm not intending to assign a specific time frame, and each person's situation will be unique to them. All I'm saying is, be honest with yourself. How can one expect to be led to the "right one" when they're too busy wasting time with the "wrong one?"
19 April 2009
While some may feel this would be a depressing experience I honestly think it's just hysterical. As of lately, I have been feeling that I'm in a good place with my single status. My feelings haven't been complicated by an unrequited crush for some time now (as there are no options in my area). I don't know if that's why it has helped me feel in a good place or not. I haven't tortured myself over anyone for quite some time now. hahha. That's what we women do, isn't it? Until we find "the one?" We torture ourselves over man after man? I for one have felt plenty of torture and am [hopefully] done.
I also have come to the conclusion that I must believe and trust in God's timetable for me. Right? I mean, He does know what's best. And as long as I remain steadfast and true to Him, He is bound to the promises which have been made me. And I figure, just like Sarah, the mother of Isaac, she almost laughed at the prophecy that she'd bear a child when she was past the age of child bearing. God was able to allow her to bear a child when it seemed impossible. I figure He can lead a worthy priesthood holding man to northeast Ohio for me. :) As impossible as it may seem - it can be done. So, that's what I'm holding out for. A miracle of my very own.
13 April 2009
I mean, I thought that it was the female Stuart Smalley in there with me. It was so awkward, I sat on my personal throne in shock. I literally heard her having a conversation with herself, "you need to just focus. you don't want to start the week off out of focus. last week was a bad week, you weren't focused. i'm gonna go back in there and be completely focused." I'm not gonna lie. I thought it was by far one of the weirdest bathroom adventures I've had yet... Just had to share!
11 April 2009
So I've got to say, I've learned my way about the concerts. The first concert, at Club Suede in Park City, I wasn't really prepared for. Just the whole bar scene, close proximity and herbality floating through the air isn't my normal environment that I prefer to be in. But he just puts on such a GREAT show. So anyway... I've become accustomed to the obstinate people, the crowded nature of the standing room only club concert venue. There's just nothing like it, really. You're able to get SO CLOSE.
So this time, similar to last time... I was able to get there early enough to be all up in the front. I tend to choose the right center (if you're looking at the stage). And it just does NOT disappoint. So last night during the encore... Well, OK. Let me first explain. It's a club. There's a standing room only floor. There's a fence type barrier that has some benches on the stage side of it. That creates the walkway where the publicity peeps get their pics and the bouncers keep an eye on things. Right? But knowing G. like I know G. During the encore, he SO came down from the stage and was standing literally like an inch from my face! BAA!!!! Right? I mean, he's standing on the bench on the other side of the barrier right smack in FRONT of ME! BAA!!!! So of course I got to touch him! I mean, HI. That's WHY he was THERE! And as the crowd surged behind me to get closer to him, I was pushed closer to him. I mean, it was way existential. It was almost as though a G. Love and Gigi samich was about to be. It was awesome.
Though, I must admit. It doesn't compare to the LAST time I saw him. I was in about the same place, and he came down right in front of me then as well. And THIS time I'd had my phone, and so i was holding it up to take his picture, but he TOOK my PHONE! *die* And he pretended he was all talkin on it, and then he was PLAYING his GUITAR with my PHONE. It was even more way existential than last night. Just sayin'! And he all touched my arm and stuff, too. AWESOME. All in all, it really was good times. *sigh*
10 April 2009
So that's the drama. Needless to say, I didn't use it today. Sad, isn't it?! Tomorrow I'm planning to organize my vanity that is currently out of control, see exhibit B. Sad isn't it? I bought a little drawer to organize daily makeup routine things so i can declutter a bit. Drivin' me insane!
Maybe while i'm organizing, I'll take pics of some of my makeup bags that have been FGWP. I have quite an extensive collection - just like Wayne has an extensive collection of hair nets and name tags.